So we are getting this alarm system installed tomorrow from a company called Safeway (not the store). it has sensors on all of the ground doors and windows, including garage door and sliding glass door, and infrared motion detection downstairs connected to a bunch of key FOBs (supposedly its ok for pets as long as they don't suddenly grow 4 feet high) and a bunch of other shit.
We already have motion sensing lights in the driveway and front door (I have confirmed the motion light comes on even when you just drive by the house. during testing)
I think I am starting to lose grip of reality but im not sure if it's just me. she wanted the system too.
we sometimes hear weird noises in the night, but its most always blamed on Jackson, the crazed Siamese cat. One night, that night our old neighbor threatened me because he thought I egged his car (I didn't and he found out it was some mean girl) - I heard a loud noise, like a door being kicked in. I looked over and she was still asleep. I woke her up and told her to get ready to call 911 and I took a flashlight and my 9mm semi-auto with my finger on the trigger, slowly downstairs, heart pounding. it couldn't have been any person, it was either the cat, or an intruder.......... it was in fact the dumb cat. He was jumping up at the back door trying to catch moths from outside (dumb fucking cat)!!
I don't want to go thru that again, every step you take, your breathing becomes more shallow. and for what it's worth, its NOT like the movies you turn on ALL the lights possible, you don't just go down there randomly in the darkness. I don't want to feel that feeling again. so I thought maybe an alarm system with a motion detecting laser would give me some peace of mind. sadly, nothing ever will until the plane is crashing down i'm in or i'm next to or colliding with it.
wtf your thinking right? I really am sane. maybe not sane but i'm coherent. I know you are judging me now. im sorry. I chose the worst profession for someone like me- to be in the public eye... but to be someone that often suspicious, always thinking out scenarios, always worrying. i'm worried about something every minute of everyday, no matter how mundane. I wish I understood how people didn't do that.
well a 17 year old is dead an a 29 year old is free. which is better, God only knows.